Next Monday will mark the dawning of my second week into summer. The soon closing first week was hell of a boring, painful, and depressing.
Reasons why:
Since there's no more school, there's no more excuse to skip the daily 2 hour Fencing training. And I haven't been going because I was "studying" of the Term exams. Everyone improved over my absence. Now I suck. And is being Beaten up. Everyday.
When not in training, The rest of my supposedly happy summer day is filed with over eating in front of the Television. Its my fault, I know. Still sucks though.
While watching stupid low budget cartoons, I end up thinking of the end of the world and stuff like that. How if I throw my food to the waste and some poor kid eats it and dies of the rotten scraps, does it make me a murderer? Man slaughter? I DID intentionally throw the food, Knowing the consequences, like people who get drunk/high who end up murdering someone. Its sorta depressing.
Drawing self-esteem getting reaaaal low. Tried using acrylic. Failed. Took me 10 minutes to make a pink shade scale. My anime stuff are retarded.
My brother's going to Ireland for a competition. Its not like a WANT to compete, but its the thought that counts. God, I'm so jealous.



Oh well. LOL, the blog seems so feeling emo. to clarify, its not intended to be emo, more of Boredom and laziness taking its toll on me. Normally, I'd have Sabine to listen to all my rants. But since she's all like.. house arrest until her mom feels she's ready for the cruel world (which would be in her late 20's) so Dev journaling is all I got.


Happy stuff...
Happy stuff...

Oh, I finally watched all the music videos of The Academy Is... XD gawd I'm so into then right now. Siska is awesome~
The problem with William Beckett is that no one can date him without feeling a bit of depression because he IS for a fact, prettier than 1/3 of the girls in the 20th century. proof: [link]
Tsk tsk.
And Heidi told me I don't need to model anymore! yay!




IF ANYONE SEES THE ALBUM: THE SUN AND THE MOON by THE BRAVERY... TELL ME. I FRICKEN LOVE THEM.